just my thoughts...

Well, I have tried to wrap my head around this recent tradegy in Connecticut and I simply can not do it. As a Mother, as a human being, it is just unfathomable to me that a person could harm a child with such malice and intent. I know that we hear about child abuse everyday, but this simply put is to much for the human soul to bear. I don't understand and I hope, God willing that I never have to, learn how to come to terms with this? When you look into the eyes of a child, their is such innocence and joy in their eyes, that as a parent or even just as an adult makes you wish that you could capture that again somehow for yourself. As a parent, we try to shield that innocence for as long as we can. Because to loose that means that we have to let go of some control over our children and we have to let them see the nasty, awful things that happen in this world.

As a Mom of a 7 and an 11 year old, I try to fill their days with the things that make them happy, as does any good parent. I feel angry that I have had to explain what happen to these babies to them. Because they are babies, they will never experience life as we know it. I feel infuriated that they have to teach my baby what to do in case some, and for lack of a better word, "crazy" person enters their school. I say for lack of a better word because I don't think that people who have disablities are neccessarily crazy. I think that they need a caring loving person to carry them through life and help them make healthy choices that a "normal" person takes for granted. I don't think that this beast was at all disable, he could only be evil in it's worst form.

I am not an advocate for gun control, but I can see the arguement that people put forth regarding it. How on this Earth, in this day and age of such mass violence, could a person acquire not one, but four guns. Not just guns, guns that are made specifically to kill. There has to be a better solution, I just don't think that when our Founding Fathers gave people the right to bear arms, they could forsee the type of society that we live in now. I am a firm believer in the Constitution of the United States and The Declaration of Independence, but I think society has chosen a different path in some cases and that someone needs to revisit these ideals.

I am not a religious person, but I find it hard to not pray to God for the souls of these babies and the people who gave their lives to try and save them. They put themselves in the line of fire because as a human being, another option never entered their minds. I pray for the first responders, who had put themselves in that classroom and try to simply do their job. How? How can anyone be expected to disassociate themselves from such evil and try to figure out what happened. I pray for those children who had to listen to the gun shots, that they can somehow lead normal, healthy lives. I pray for the families of the victims, that they can find peace. I pray for humanity that we find redemption and humility. I wonder after centuries when the human race will finally get it right. I want a better society for my children than this.